no need for bus money just yet...

Do you want to know what I found out today? I found out that I have until mid year to buy my own car. How fabulous! I honestly thought I had three weeks or until whenever it is that Jemimah gets back from Paris. Nobody told me that she wasn't going back to uni until mid year... I have been stressing A LOT about the fact that I will be carless very soon... but that is not the case it seems. I really need to learn to stress less... my teeth REALLY hurt. Oh gosh...

kitten love

Tonight I stormed out of the house in fits of rage (almost literally) and headed off to anywhere (by foot). I was hoping to chill out at the park for a while to do some thinking and some calming, but some kids were playing... what they were still doing up was beyond me! Anyways, I walked a little way but not too far (as I didn't change into appropriate shoes) and hoped to walk away all that was going on in my head. But I had nowhere to go and I didn't feel like walking for ages so I turned around and headed back towards the park. Just as I was approaching, some people were leaving and I noticed that there was a cat wandering around. I walked over to the playground to sit and process stuff... and this little kitty just wouldn't leave me alone! It was pretty intense. At first I wanted it to get away... but it wouldn't give up on me. It was sitting on my lap, purring, trying to climb up my chest... if I moved away... it would run right up to me. It reminded me of a time years ago when I was deeply upset and all I wanted was a hug, and out of nowhere a little kitten came up and began smooching my leg. I really felt that it was God giving me a hug. Maybe God sent this kitty to me also... I mean it worked. I forgot about all that was eating me up. It calmed me down. And then I went home, and life was ok.

I did take photos, but I couldn't find my cord... so I will have to upload them later.

A silly story and a deeper thought...

Well... I am good at not posting for ages, and then when I do its boring! Ha! But I won't let that stop me from having a ramble...

So. I don't really know what there is to say actually. I feel all blocked up on the inside recently, it is quite frustrating. Let me think...


The other day I was to start work at 6am. I usually set my alarm clock for 4:44 on those days, just so I am actually up by the time I am supposed to be... which is about 5. Usually I snooze it once, then I get up. But on this particular morning, it didn't quite happen that way. I'm not quite sure if I snoozed and ignored, or if I just didn't wake up... or if I was confused. But as it turned out I didn't actually wake up until 5:44... The time I usually leave! I had a little bit of a freak out... I mean I was supposed to be opening up the front end. If I was late or didn't show... people would be angry. Anyway... I got ready in lightning speed and got myself to work. And guess what time I signed on at? 5:59! Can you believe it? Heck, I can't! From in bed to at work in 15 minutes. I must say it was some sort of miracle. When I was sleeping literally 10 seconds from were I was working it took me longer than that. Ok, so I must admit... I wasn't wearing socks, I didn't eat breakfast and I didn't clean my teeth (eew)... but I was there. And that is my story!

What else...

Yeah. Life is intense in a very nothingness kind of way. I'm sure that makes no sense at all... I get what I mean. Sort of. I just keep getting stuck thinking about things, but nothing much comes from it. I dunno... its like this. I really want change in my life, but I'm not prepared to do what is required to make it happen. It is a horrible way to live, and it is only the fault of myself. And this is something I am very aware of. Hmmm...

My internet is being a poo... what's the bet that this thing doesn't post...

pink k 68...

Oooh... I went to the eating house in rowville for new years and won a $50 voucher for the restaurant. I know I always win everything... but please don't hate me! So, who's up for some modern australian cuisine! I am! (Tis very good food there. The music ain't bad either!)

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

So yay, it is 2008 already. My thoughts on 2007... well, i'm trying not to look backwards. All of the things that I wish I done, that I thought would happen etc... are in the past. This year is fresh with no mistakes in it... well, no mistakes in it yet! But I am very excited at all of the possibilities. And this year, I don't want to hold back and let fear control me. I don't want to watch things happen... I want to get amongst it. I want to grow and learn and experience things. At the same time I don't want to go crazy and put too much pressure on myself and then be dissapointed when I fail. When I fall I will get up again and just keep swimming!

So bring on 2008!